When I first thought about today’s prompt so many things came to mind, the topic of change especially when it comes to wanting to change yourself is such a huge step to take, and it can range anywhere from changing your physical appearance to mindset shifts to perspectives to personality. And more.
Part of me sees change as somewhat of a controversy. Are you changing for yourself? for a friend? for a significant other? Have life experiences forced you to change? Or was it more gradual process occurring over months or years?
Day 12: Something you hope to change about yourself and why.
Within the past three years I’ve changed completely, yes I know a terribly overused cliche, but it is so true, if I were to go back to my 2016 self I would have a shock, least of all about my physical appearance.
Right at the beginning of my spiraling changes, I felt like it was more everyone else around me was changing, was growing up and that I’d be left behind in my own little safety bubble. Though I started for the wrong reasons I found myself doing to for the right reasons, once I figured out what these reasons were.
Navigating through that was definitely difficult, other people’s perspectives of myself and my own got mixed up in all the confusion. I ended making mistakes that in hindsight seem so stupid, but lessons have been learnt from that.
Despite all the recent changes I’ve made, one thing I would change about myself would be to be open to new experiences, as someone who has bad anxiety, anything from meeting new people and traveling to new places would initiate breakdowns, except now I know it’s never bad as it seems, And when I’m in the new environment I end up actually enjoying myself a lot, something I could never have predicted during my anxious thought processes.
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