It’s been over a year since I updated my sticky post, and since then many, many things have changed. I’ve evolved, grown and nurtured my relationship with myself, with the people around me and even the new strangers who’ve become almost like family to me. My last sticky was about me achieving my goals, the focus on my excitement with blogging for another company and just absorbing all the writing opportunities that had come my way.
As you can probably imagine, this one will be a little different.
Along with all the growing I’ve done to become a better person internally and externally, a lot of the opportubities that I’ve seized have allowed me to become much less socially anxious. As someone who experienced social anxiety throughout her teen years, this felt like a burden off my shoulders, I was much more confident, competent and self-aware.
Fortunately I still am.
The past year has changed me, to be more specific, my job as an assistant psychologist in a community mental health team changed me. And even then, that’s an understatement, it’s too long to explain within this life update, but in short, constantly exposing myself to unpredictable environments with new people switched my perspective. Even staff members, everything from their humour to habits and therapeutic conversational styles rubbed off on me, I’m not only one of them, but they’re all within me.
That’s the beauty of working, finding those people you click with who can teach you things you never dreamed of doing, never dreamed of working on.
Since I’ve now been 21 for a few months, and summer has been fast approaching, meaning I’ll be leaving the safety of my placement and moving onto new experiences; that same anxiety was also fast approaching. Of course, I had applied to plenty of jobs, researched dozens of companies and even practiced interview style question, something inside me just wasn’t passionate enough about retail work.
Instead I leaned towards more admin and even more tutoring experience, a few weeks ago I had the opportunity to be interviewed for a role around graduate market research, which I’ll be undertaking in my final year of university, I felt my confidence increase throughout the interview, I was beginning to get comfortable sipping on my mug of hot chocolate and was throwing out all my experience, left, right and centre.
And, it paid off.
I got the job, as someone who’s only ever had one paid job, this excited me, adrenaline was rushing through my body and I was over the moon to be working on this project. My worries around being independent, about being financially stable were slipping away, I was no longer worried about having to adult, this was me actually #adulting.
More recently, I’ve had another job interview for tutoring experience, of which the second stage will take place next week, perhaps I’m feeling too confident for this one, or maybe my anxiety isn’t rushing to the surface as often. But I’m finally starting to see my own self-worth, I’m finally beginning to believe in my own skills, it’s such a wonderful feeling to know that I can do this.
The strongest factor for success is self-esteem: believing you can do it, believing you deserve it an believing that you’ll get it.
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