There are times in life when I become comfortable, almost too comfortable to the point of stagnation. I’ve been feeling like that for a while now, that sense of being stuck, not necessarily overwhelmed by an obstacle, but just being immersed in my comfort zone. Just like everyone else, I have a love/hate relationship with comfort zones, on one hand it’s an innate system that will keep me safe, mentally, physically and emotionally, but on the other it will cause me to stagnate, to stop learning, to stop growing.
This period of stagnation that has followed on from the new year has led me to feel uninspired and unmotivated, I go to work in the mornings, come back in the evenings and just stay on social media in the time I have in-between. I have a love/hate relationship with social media as well but that’s a whole other story.
So I’ve been in a rut, but what am I actually going to do about it?
Well, I resisted and have been resisting.
Well, because I’m scared.
Fear is a strange thing. On a grand scale it can cause war, destruction, anger, hate and suffering between civilisations, countries, organisations. On a personal scale, it can cause the exact same feelings of war, destruction, anger, hate and suffering but all within ourselves. But it’s not all bad, fear can also be a motivator, an inspiration, a means of moving forward, a source of gratitude.
For me, fear was my biggest obstacle to change, now there aren’t too many huge things going on in my life, but a massive life change is upcoming to the point where I can almost feel it, like it’s breathing down my neck, sending chills down my spine. Or, at least that’s what I’ve come to imagine. Resistance has been a hope that this life change won’t happen, but there’s no way I can stop the passage of time or even things that are meant to be.
But what I can do is start charging at full speed ahead, well, perhaps not full speed in the worry I’ll overwhelm myself but by making little changes over the coming weeks, months and years. I know I’ve got to get back on the bandwagon of fulfilling my habits (which I’ve fallen off, yet again!!) and then bring my mindset back to where it needs to be, open to challenges, to changes with a hint of optimism.
So what are we waiting for, let’s go.
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