For those of you who are new or haven’t been keeping up with my much older posts,
(which probably need some kind of refresh anyway) back in 2017 I started a series called Unfiltered, this, as the name suggests, was going to be about my own thoughts and ramblings. Most of this actually centred around my time at therapy when I was battling low mood, unresolved emotions and a ton of anxiety. Since then I’ve continued to use it, not as regularly as I perhaps should, to document my mental health and my struggles.
Though I haven’t posted in the Unfiltered series for some time, that’s not to say I’m always on cloud 9, living my best life without any type of anxiety. Just like most things in life, we have our highs and our lows. And one important low that I want to talk about are the January blues, mainly because of the emphasis on how important it is to start achieving your goals.
The new year usually brings good vibes, we can all feel the buzz in the air and the excitement of fresh starts, we’ve all, in a way been conditioned to think that our lives should be going onwards & upwards. All those fresh, new goals that have been set since literally day 1 should have been accomplished every day to the utmost perfection.
These are the standards I feel like we’re held to when we decide to participate in the new year resolutions, of course, it’s definitely not all bad. I’ve made my goals and have my own achievements that I want to accomplish. life isn’t linear though, it’s okay to have fresh starts that are past January 1st, in fact, I encourage it.
We all need fresh starts, whether it’s every day or every week, I encourage you to take a step back & find the beauty in living again.
I’ve been struggling with a few issues of my own both mentally & emotionally, that’s meant every day is a new day, some days sadly like the day I’m typing this, things feel low and sad which means it would be much easier than my happier days to get into bed, hide under the covers, and just disappear from the world. But not today, today despite the fact that I’m not feeling an inkling of creativity, I’m here sitting upright with my laptop on my desk trying to make words make sense, essentially trying to English and be meaningful at the same time.
Even though there are pressures from society and social media, whether it’s seeing everyone else’s somewhat perfect lives, and even the expectations that we have for ourselves, there’s no reason to stop after the first downfall, to give up once we’ve reached the first obstacle, I feel like a right hypocrite mentioning this at a time where I can’t see the light at the end of my own tunnel, but I know I’ll get there soon. Fall down seven, stand up eight.
It’s easy to get lost in the familiar feeling of self-doubt, sadness and unease.
Change whether it’s internal or external starts from within and I know that if I keep up with my daily habits of self-care, slowly but surely I’ll notice things becoming lighter, brighter and happier the way they used to be. Without trying to sound too morbid, if anyone else is going through something like the January blues, it’s okay to put your own health above other priorities, as long as you take active steps to overcome the struggles, you’ll be able to find the light at the end of your own tunnel too., even if you need extra support to get there.
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