This is scary. I’m doing it anyway.
It’s been over a month since my ‘unplanned’ hiatus, it was an incredibly last-minute decision that had both positive and negative outcomes, I have around 45 pending drafts that I’m itching to write and pump out one by one over the coming months, yet I need to slow down because of health and medical reasons.
I want to thank everyone, both my old and new followers for their patience over the last month, without sounding too cliche, I’ve changed, whether or not this is due to the new year vibes, I can tell that the changes are here to stay. And I could not be more happy about this. Being almost bed-ridden for over a month, cancelling plans with friends and having to build up the strength to travel 3,000 miles away for a family wedding, really took everything I had and pulled it out of me.
The exhaustion and jet-lag is real, thankfully I’ve managed to overcome the worst parts of both, but my health is still up in the air. The cure being to rest, not do anything too strenuous and be alert about potential symptoms. And for anyone who knows me, either through real-life or even through the internet will know that that is not me at all. Hearing this from health professionals saddened me, what was I going to do with all this time?
The lows I hit over the month were painful, to say the least, the isolation, the hearing of bad news, the impending knowledge of having to go into surgery at some point, and the little pockets of time I had in between where my thoughts were racing, changed me. I knew this was all going to be temporary but whether this lessened my pain, I can’t really tell. I stopped blogging, I stopped going to work, I stopped meeting friends.
My life stopped.
I’m here now, a month ahead in time, welcoming everyone back to new content, but to also welcome myself back into my life. And this is the best and warmest welcome I’ve ever given. The fact that my life is back on track, where I’m working again, meeting and socialising with friends, where I’m beginning to flex my creative muscles and open myself up about my experiences, means that the lows are turning into highs.
I suppose the most important thing is that despite my life has become what it used to be, it’s no longer the same. The early wintry mornings that I used to dread have now become slow mornings full of newness, opportunities and wonder. What was once mundane has become magical, and for me, that’s everything.
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