Some time ago I published a post on one of the truths being what it means to be a blogger, I wrote this with the intention of spreading more of the reality, the nitty-gritty details as opposed to shaming it in any way. A huge aspect of blogging is being creative, and at times, this can be difficult, whether it’s trying to come up with original ideas or amend existing ones, so the reasonable thing to do would be to take a break.
For those of you who have been following me for a while now will know that I do go on hiatuses, I will at times let blogging slip to the back of my mind, more important things will come up, like my work, my degree, my relationships and balancing it all can get too much.
So blogging will take a back seat in my life. And that’s okay.
For the past two years I struggled with taking breaks, at times I would have reached my peak where I was publishing several times a week, but at what cost? Everything physical and more real in my life became much less of a priority when really that shouldn’t have been the case at all. I suffered at the expense.
A few posts ago I posted a writing rant, I wrote out my deepest feelings, my frustrations, my anger towards the fact that I wasn’t where I wanted to be, and that’s no one’s fault but my own. Since then, I’ve taken another break with a more positive mindset, because before taking a break would mean losing views, losing readers, in my mind, it would become just one big loss, that loss instilled so much fear and anxiety inside me that I would become afraid of blogging again.
Was my content even good enough? Would anyone actually read my posts again?
Then all of a sudden, it clicked. I understood what was happening, I delved deeper and deeper and questioned myself, why does something I truly love, and have loved, cause me anxiety? The answer was simple enough, I had stopped loving it. I was so focused on obtaining validation, getting the likes, the comments, the views, the followers, I was so obsessed with the statistics that I forgot why I even started my blog in the first place.
I was never doing it for other people, or to become the centre of attention, I was doing it simply because I liked writing.
I was doing it for me.
If anyone else is struggling with the blogging blues, with lack of inspiration, or even a case of a boredom, look back at what motivated and inspired you to start in the first place. Honestly, it’ll make all the difference.
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