As a child I admired, and perhaps even nearly envied people who I considered ‘creators’, the artists, the writers, the people who could make something out of nothing, something they were passionate about, something they believed in, and showcase to the world in such a way that they were considered revolutionaries in their separate domains. But I never believed I could become a creator too.
To put it simply, in my childhood I was a huge perfectionist, my education and future career was the single thing that was of utmost importance to me, to the point where, by the time I was 16 I knew exactly what profession I wanted to go into, and exactly how I was going to get there. Essentially my life for the next 20 odd years was pretty much planned out. And that was that. But the fact that I’m sitting here, on my laptop typing out these very words means that didn’t exactly go to plan, and instead of cursing for what seemed to be such a huge loss, I’m incredibly grateful.
Aside from my perfectionist tendencies, I was never any good at anything creative, I was much too shy and introverted to consider acting, I’m much too impatient and critical of my drawing skills of which I have very little, and writing was somewhat a struggle I still cringe over some of my work that was published into poetry books and the like. So I just gave up, one day I decided something completely academic and completely non-creative was just the thing for me and that was going to be my focus for as long as I lived.
Looking back now I realise how ridiculous this all seemed, planning my time at a microscopic level when life itself was the most unpredictable thing to have ever existed, I realise that taking opportunities that aren’t in line with potential careers is fine, pursuing something that you thought you would never try can be life-changing, whether it ends up good or bad, it’s still a lesson that can be drawn upon, it still holds value.
And currently, that’s the philosophy that I’m trying to adopt, to understand creativity isn’t just reserved for those who have been revered for what they’ve created but rather that it’s something that anyone can implement if they choose to exercise their creative muscle.
© Afiyah/WhenLifeAwakens, 2018. Unauthorised use and/or duplication of this material without express and written permission from this site’s author and/or owner is strictly prohibited. Excerpts and links may be used, provided that full and clear credit is given to Afiyah/WhenLifeAawakens with appropriate and specific direction to the original content.
|| FOR RELATED POSTS CHECK THESE OUT: ||
As for now, my main focus is my Instagram account @whenlifeawakens which I gave a huge makeover to since it was my personal account for such a long time, but now it’s my main way to keep in touch my fellow bloggers, to update you on new posts and of course, to be aesthetically pleasing.
|| FOR MORE OF MY DAILY LIFE, FOLLOW ME HERE: ||